Updated 2026-June-2;;
In March of 2023 my beloved dog Shiro passed away from a cancerous tumor near his heart that spread to his lungs. I paused my UK job search at the time in order to return to Malaysia and provide palliative care, and unfortunately hold a lot of trauma still from various mistakes that caregivers gave at the time (letting my dog's eyes roll open as they took away his body, for example, and being blamed by my mother for "not trying hard enough" to keep him alive).In February 2025 I ended a 9 year relationship with my long-term boyfriend after realising how much I hid from my family to 'prove' that he treated me well, and after receiving neutral support from my family on the breakup, I decided to move back home to Malaysia to spend more time with my elderly grandmother who has been taking care of me since I was tiny. She has extremely limited mobility in a wheelchair, and my parents are not as patient with her as they could be. I am the emotional manager of the household. I am financially dependent on my parents, which is highly stressful and makes me question every penny I spend.My parents agreed to let me try to focus on being an Artist, Streamer, & VTuber: but they have very little understanding of what I do and things I want to experiment with. I am sheltered and sometimes ignorant, but always very curious: I hope you'll be patient with me and enjoy whatever time you spend with me <3